"Cristina, I could promise to hold you and to cherish you. I could promise to be in sickness and in health. I could say, til death do us part. But I won't. Those vows are for optimistic couples, the ones full of hope. And I do not stand here, on my wedding day, optimistic or full of hope. I am not optimistic, I am not hopeful, I am sure. I am steady. And I know that I am a heart man. I take them apart and I put them back together and I hold them in my hands. I am a heart man. So this I am sure, you are my partner, my lover, my very best friend, my heart, my heart beats for you. And on this day, the day of our wedding, I promise you this: I promise you to lay my heart in the palm of your hands, I promise you me."
This quote was from Season 3(?) So almost...3 years ago since I've been touched by the existence of "a heart man". After 3 years I am still equally touched and maybe this feeling is intensified by a tint of remorse now as I reflect upon my futile search amongst the relationships I've built, destroyed and regretted...
A few amazing people have crossed roads with me in my short lifetime so far...
Some, I'm simply thankful for their graceful presence at the intersections of our fate.
Others, I treasure to this day as soul mates...those rare individuals are the needles of the haystack in this planet. Their presence in our lives means more than that first relationship established; that relationship grows into a more complex figure and these people have a special impact on us...an impact that transcends time.
Often, I think back at "what went wrong?" "why couldn't our relationship stay the same?" "what if he was the heart man?" Maybe because it's just not meant to be that way.
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